You Can't Stay Here

Weekly Report (2/6 to 2/12)

This week I focused on ironing out my product proposal for the final product of the year.It is difficult to come up with a product proposal because this is essentially what I capture my entire year of ISM. And especially in medicine, creating a product itself can be difficult because much of the aspects that can benefit society are difficult to create as a high school student without a strong background in biology.

The beginning of the year I wanted to do something biological or structural that would help scientists or doctors find cures or more efficient ways of doing things. But after studying so much into pediatric surgery I realized that it's going to be very difficult for that to happen so I need to look into something that might be more program based.The idea that I currently have or a final product is not bad, but I feel like you could be further expanded on if I were to get information or suggestions from a mentor on if this would be possible in the first place or if it is already been done before.

I believe that the main problem with me in not being able to settle on a project proposal is my lack of ability to commit to something. The idea I have is definitely good enough for a final product but I just cannot confirm it.I think that's what drove me to pursuing careers like pediatric surgery because with pediatric surgery I don't have to commit to a specific type of surgery, such as cardiovascular. Pediatric surgery is essentially general surgery but just for children and covers such a broad range of diseases and conditions.This type of behavior is even shown when picking my next topic for ISM in which I am taking something so completely different from pediatric surgery, investment banking.

I think this quality is dangerous to have because if I constantly feel like I need to change or not settle with something, I will never get far in any career.To do well in life you have to be able to persist through a career for a long time. I do not see myself as someone who would give up on a career career because it is difficult but I do see myself struggling in the future to not only commit to a topic of study,but later specialization.This likely stems from the fact that I want to do everything. Because I'm interested in so many things everything becomes more difficult for me to commit myself to just one thing.

But in other aspects my broad and lack to fully commit to anything can help me learn more and can help me be able to attack a larger body outside my own patient.As always, the qualities I possess have two very different implications that can be positive or negative depending on the way you look at the world.